Reblogged from tabithashaw
In the books, Hermione’s boggart is failing her classes. Her greatest fear is failing her classes.
However, it goes a lot deeper than that. Subconsciously, I think she believes that if she does not do well and if she fails, they’ll kick her out of Hogwarts and the Wizarding World. So her real fear isn’t failing.
At Hogwarts, she has two wonderful friends who love her, and she is getting to live in an incredible world. She doesn’t want to lose that, and she thinks that if she does bad in her classes, they won’t let her come back.
so what if…
when in the philosophers stone her line “we could be killed, or worse.. expelled” wasn’t her being snooty or a teachers pet..
but her saying that she would rather die than stop going to hogwarts and never see her friends again?
But it’s not just fear of loosing her friends though. Could you imagine what life was like for a bookish girl with big front teeth and fluffy hair in the muggle world? We know Hermione - she probably learned all about science and socials in class and knew about the world and found it fascinating but a little easy and boring. She was probably bullied for it - and for the way she looked. By all muggle standards - even though she was smart, they would have worked hard to make her feel like she was nothing special. In fact, that there was something wrong with her. That she was bossy. That she was annoying. That she wasn’t pretty enough. You know how this world treats girls - and especially, girls like her. Then to - out of nowhere- get a letter that tells you: YOU ARE SPECIAL! You are wanted. You are welcomed. Come, be special in a community of special people just like you! Live in a place where your achievements make you great - where some of the most renowned, well-loved figureheads of our world are weird, and strange, and special - just like you. Where your headmaster is literally the weirdest - and most loved - out of everyone. Where your love of learning and knowing will make you more powerful, more special, more appreciated - instead of ostracized.
It never surprised me that she read all her magical textbooks before her first year even started. She loved knowledge, and she was told there was an entire new world of it, filled with entirely new rules - laws - technology - cultures - experiences. She could be herself in that world. She was probably in heaven - it’s the best thing that could have happened, to a girl like her. She could finally have the validation that she IS special. That there’s nothing wrong with being who she is. The muggle world would have never given her that. So you can bet your ass, her greatest fear would be loosing it. Even if she didn’t have Harry and Ron - Hermione was meant to be a witch, and being raised muggleborn - she’s horribly afraid someone will take it away or say ‘nope, we’ve made a mistake. sorry. you aren’t special after all. go back to the muggle world and be ordinary and unappreciated for your talents.’
Being magical is a privilege in itself - it’s an opportunity to be more. Other people have talked on here about how, if they were invited to hogwarts - they would NEVER skip a class, NEVER hand in homework late, ALWAYS say thank you and be grateful. That’s Hermione. We are her, essentially. If I were her - I’d have spent every single moment of my life terrified that I was only dreaming, and hoping to never wake up.